Self Conscious

usually I sit down with a specific post in mind. maybe I journaled about something earlier in the day and want to share it here. maybe I had a Spiritual awakening to Self that I just cannot let pass without sharing. today, however, I have no specific post in mind. I hope, as I type, that something with come to me.

negative Self consciousness.

the simple phrase of 'self-conscious' in our society has come to mean something far different than a deep consciousness of Self. isn't that what we are all seeking? but if someone said I want to be self-conscious, it would not sound like a positive progression. lately I have been struggling with comparing my Self to other Selves in the world. I have a tendency to be seemingly conscious in my Self, but end up seeing my Self in a negative light.

this morning I read a reading that spoke of embracing that which I do not have to truly know that which I do have.
"The purpose of the human soul is to experience all of it - so that it can be all of it.The soul, therefore, never condemns that which is not grand, but blesses - seeing in it a part of itself which must exist for another part of itself to manifest.
The job of the soul, of course, is to cause us to choose the grandeur - to select the best of Who You Are - without condemning that which you do not select... bless what you do not choose."

Reading this, I felt a sense of Self emerge - to know myself and allow my Self to embrace and bless that which I have and that which I do not have without judgment. It reminds me of my Fourth Step in Al-Anon - a fearless, moral inventory. What is an inventory? An evaluational of that which you don't have AND that which you have! Today, I will love all that I am, being fully Self conscious, and release my fears or judgments about that which I do not have.

blessings