perfectionism at it's best

perfectionism - a personal standard, attitude, or philosophy that demands perfection and rejects anything less.

Yeah, that can be me. Reaching to be the "best," by judging others around me as "better than" or "less than," in an overall personal strive to feel like I'm worthy. Worthy of love. Worthy to be accepted. Worthy to be complimented. Worthy to exist. But aren't we already "worthy" in the mere fact that we DO exist? Nonetheless, I struggle to be better and my ideals of "better" seem to stem more from the outside world and less in what I think of myself.

This morning I read a quote: "When I'm no longer making mistakes I'll be out of this world." Still not sure if I fully embrace this quote, but the idea of shifting my perspective pertaining to mistakes is a critical one for me. I desire to no longer see mistakes as an opportunity to beat myself up - saying how much better everyone else is than me or thinking that I am not good enough, but rather as a part of my journey, a part of my growth into self-awareness.

My mistakes help me remember who I truly am - who I long to be. They help me remember who I already am but have forgotten. My new challenges bring me out of denial, towards acceptance and guide me to love others, offering compassion each step of the way - both for self and others.

Blessings