summer has been hectic

As I logged on for the first time in a while, I realized that my sweet blog has been somewhat neglected. OK... really neglected. Lately, I guess, I have not had too much to interpret into writing. But that's not really it, either, as I have been writing some of my best work other place.

Not sure why, but I seem to not want to just sit down and write for the sake of writing. I love to write. If I could name my core skill in one word it would 'writer.' For me, this phrase encompasses so much more than taking my streams of consciousness and putting them on paper or screen. It is a very powerful word that connects me to myself on a deeper level. For more than twenty years, writing has been the one thing I have consistently used to help me through things. Whether it was a journal or poetry or learning how to blog, writing has been something like a best friend through the years.

So why have I neglected to sit down and do any writing to put myself out there? Well, frankly I have been a little scared. I have been feeling the urger to finally finish a book I began when I was 14 and to venture into the world of children's books, and the thought of putting myself out there has caused me to clam up for this blog. Frankly...

The past month or so has been one of the greatest of my life. I have had more gratitude for all the abundance in my life (as I have watched the true abundance of food, toddler-hood, business, and love spark up all around me). I have made, and now have, more friends than I ever thought possible. I have my own garden. I have a vivacious, beautiful little girl (who is smarter than I ever could have planned). I am more in love with my husband (more so, even, than I was when we were on that pink cloud of dating).

I am happier than I have ever been, know myself and those around me better than I ever have, and feel like I am finally "coming into my own," as they say. The most interesting thing is that I still don't make that $100,000 I swore I would make my first year out of college (I was rather ambitious then), own that car I thought I had to have, or wear designer clothes. I am actually making less money than I was a few months ago.

So all in all, I am happy. I do not have everything I think I want, but I definitely have more than I know I need. My Higher Power has definitely given me all that I need and filled my life with more love than I ever thought existed!