where have I been?

I was convinced that I would keep up with my blog at least weekly.  Today I received a link to my friend Megan's new blog.  She graciously linked to this little spot and I realized that I have not written in almost a month!  WHOA!  Where have I been?

Work has been something of a challenge lately and I feel like every day I am in a pinch to do something, get organized, or write something for work.  Camden has not been napping the way she used to, so my time is being occupied more and more by time with my sweet little angel.  So... that is where I have been.  

Where am I now?  

I am in a place of great self-awareness.  I am getting the opportunity to see all the things I want to change about myself.  What some call character defects are all over the place for me right now.  

One of my biggest struggles is with self-confidence.  When people say something to me or about me, I have a tendency to automatically take it in as my truth.  Remaining confident in myself despite what others say or think is probably my biggest battle.  My insight?  I am seeking to let others' thoughts about me be their business and not affect how I see myself.  What others think and feel is not because of me - I am not that powerful.  If someone has a problem with me, that is a something within themselves they must deal with.  If someone does not like me for whatever reason, I am not responsible for changing their views of me.  I may not be perfect (and if you know anyone who is, please let me know!), but I know that I am a pretty cool person.  That being said, let me make a disclosure about the difference between pride and self-confidence.  I know I need to improve, but am a great person just the way I am - this is self-confidence.    

Self-confidence can leave as quickly as it comes if I forget my truth.  Today, I will work to stay in my truth and let others be in theirs.